Life

Well, obviously I have not kept up on this blog...at all. Haha, ummm...where to start.
I've had some great things happen lately, but am also feeling incredibly overwhelmed and depressed. I really need to get into gear and work hard with my deadlings-mainly in school-and make many decisions that I'm stressing over.
But, first of all, the good things. I found a dear friend Jamie on facebook and am so ecstatic! She's my first best friend from 5th grade. We stayed in touch for a couple years after I moved but gradually drifted. I cried-happy tears-when I saw her friend request, I'm SO happy that she found me :)
I also finally got my schedule solidified for my Senior year which has helped me to relax alot. I also decided that I want to start working on the path to become a high school English Teacher. While it's great to finally have a decision made with college ever coming closer, it's SO weird! I feel really old, and I'm not sure how I feel about it...
I've also been driving A TON lately. I pester my parents about it with every opportunity and have been enjoying it very much. I can't wait to get my license, I wish that I'd never gotten behind. I'm going to sign up for the next Driver's Ed. class.
Pep band is also over after tomorrow, I hate it...and am so happy that I won't have to worry about it anymore :)
As for feeling overwhelmed...I guess it's just more discouraged than anything. I'm so sick and tired of feeling dizzy all the time, not being able to sleep, daily migraines, fatique, weakness, vision problems, etc. and the doctors telling me that nothing is wrong with me. I've been through almost every test they can do for goodness sake! *Sigh* It's so upsetting because it held me back this past year with marching band and now it's looking like it will do the same for next season. I want to be better. I have no idea what I'm going to/will be able to do with marching band next year. I've almost lost my desire to do it at all but at the same time I love it.
Then, homework. End of term is coming up in a couple weeks and I have SO much absent work to do. I am so scared that I won't be able to get it all done.
Why can't time just freeze for a while so that I can breathe?