Saturday, March 27, 2010

Butterflies

This week has been super exhausting, but also really exciting.
First off, my organization plan is underway and I'm loving it. I have been getting things done, and I feel SO much better! My mom bought me a pretty planner that is becoming my heart and soul. If I ever lose it, I WILL die.
Then on Tuesday I did a photoshoot with my good friend Erin. (She used to be my Young Womens leader, and is super sweet:) It was super fun; I'd never done any modeling/pictures stuff since my pageants in 7th grade, it was hard to feel comfortable with it again, but I had a blast! I wore my purple dress from homecoming and posed in various places around Peteetneet Academy. It was super windy which made it....interesting :) but it all worked out in the end.
I went to detention after school on Thursday to make up my attendance deficencies-so that I could go on band tour on Monday. LOL It was really fun because many of my band friends also had to serve detention, it was a party. Haha. When we all walked in together the lady holding detention said, "Let me guess. Band trip next week, huh?" :)
On Friday I was a "roadie" on the Jazz Band's trip up to Jordan High School for their State Performance. It was really fun and they did AMAZING!! (As usual) They got straight 1's!!! It was super exciting! Mr. Larsen is going to send in a recording of them playing to see if they can play at the UMEA "grand meeting." Haha Whoever could went to Evan Kaiser's house to celebrate that night. We played "dodgeball" in their basement and then watched movies. I have wonderful friends!
That brings me to today. I got a TON done today, and am finally being allowed to breathe. Band tour is on Monday morning until Wednesday, so today was my day to get everything ready. I went and picked up a trial pair of contacts, bought a new swimming suit, swim shorts, and "towl dress", toiletries, snacks, minutes for cell phone, etc. etc. I'm nervous to leave home for three days with everything going on in life right now, but I'm also really pysched! :D

Sunday, March 21, 2010

New Beginnings

3rd term is over, hallelujah!!! I didn't do so very good with my grades this term...but I'm not as freaked out and depressed over it as I normally would be. Is that bad? I'm kind of leaning towards thinking that it's not that bad...being sick has made me absent way too much. But I've been feeling LOADS better, dizziness easing, not as much insomnia, etc. I'm SO excited. I'll be able to do better next term, I can feel it :D
My mom even bought me some pretty new binders, dividers, papers, etc. I've come up with a huge organization/studying/homework/daily life scheduling plan and am going to try it out starting tomorrow. I think that I'll be a lot happier once I buy a planner and attempt to organize my life. Alleviate whatever unnecessary stressers I have.
I finally got the leaks in my flute fixed which I'm pretty excited about. I kept putting it off and it was horrible. Now it's great just in time for band tour to Las Vegas. ( March 29-31) I used to be totally dreading tour but now I'm actually getting a little excited. It's all about attitude right? I can make it fun no matter what happens, as long as I choose that road...I hope.
Prom is at the end of April and I've already been thinking about it all the time, and have money saved away hoping that I'll have the opportunity to go. I've told my parents I don't care if I get asked, but they know-as do I-how disappointed I will be if I end up at home that night...
Well, that's basically it right now. Food is calling me :)

Monday, March 1, 2010

Life

Well, obviously I have not kept up on this blog...at all. Haha, ummm...where to start.
I've had some great things happen lately, but am also feeling incredibly overwhelmed and depressed. I really need to get into gear and work hard with my deadlings-mainly in school-and make many decisions that I'm stressing over.
But, first of all, the good things. I found a dear friend Jamie on facebook and am so ecstatic! She's my first best friend from 5th grade. We stayed in touch for a couple years after I moved but gradually drifted. I cried-happy tears-when I saw her friend request, I'm SO happy that she found me :)
I also finally got my schedule solidified for my Senior year which has helped me to relax alot. I also decided that I want to start working on the path to become a high school English Teacher. While it's great to finally have a decision made with college ever coming closer, it's SO weird! I feel really old, and I'm not sure how I feel about it...
I've also been driving A TON lately. I pester my parents about it with every opportunity and have been enjoying it very much. I can't wait to get my license, I wish that I'd never gotten behind. I'm going to sign up for the next Driver's Ed. class.
Pep band is also over after tomorrow, I hate it...and am so happy that I won't have to worry about it anymore :)
As for feeling overwhelmed...I guess it's just more discouraged than anything. I'm so sick and tired of feeling dizzy all the time, not being able to sleep, daily migraines, fatique, weakness, vision problems, etc. and the doctors telling me that nothing is wrong with me. I've been through almost every test they can do for goodness sake! *Sigh* It's so upsetting because it held me back this past year with marching band and now it's looking like it will do the same for next season. I want to be better. I have no idea what I'm going to/will be able to do with marching band next year. I've almost lost my desire to do it at all but at the same time I love it.
Then, homework. End of term is coming up in a couple weeks and I have SO much absent work to do. I am so scared that I won't be able to get it all done.
Why can't time just freeze for a while so that I can breathe?